New Year 2K19 - A review in Mia's life.

Hello dear you,

So.... it's 3rd Jan 2019. I guess.... HAPPY NEW YEAR 2K19?! ;)

Well well... Twenty eighteen.

20-18.

2018!

... was overall a good year for me.

In 2017 I was dying. It was as rough as the waves in the ocean. My darkest time.

But it was my strength for 2018. I entered 2018 with a broken heart and self crisis - financially and emotionally. I was a nuisance to my old folks and family. But I bucked up and continue with my 2018's resolution of overcoming fear, self love and continuous improvement. Safe to say I kept up with my resolution.

I conquered my fears. I learned to swim. I started painting and blogging again. I followed my instinct, reenacted with my love of my life. I tried to come back home as frequent as possible to spend time with my family. I got my first proper job (in fact today's my work anniversary - 1st year of employment! Wee). I bought my first car. I conquered my bad shopaholic behavior. I started saving and realigning my money management. I decided to get married. And I could manage my anger better. Alhamdulillah alla kulli haal!

Basically, to put it out, me adulting was highly successful with my old folks' support. I will surely not be what I am without them both. I love my Mummy and Ayah too much. I cried. (During my year end leave, I had 10 days at home. One of the days, I was in my room when Mum suddenly came in reminding of the white garments and batik she has prepared when the day comes. I know it was good of her to prep but did it not hurt me? Of course it did. Secretly, there feels like a lump in my throat, unable to pass through. Phew! *crying again*)

And of course my family. Tho we're not the ideal-est set of siblings, absence of either one will have its impact.

And my love of my life - Koobs. For choosing and staying by my side despite what we have gone through.

And ultimately, big or small the achievements were, is all from the Lord itself - Allah SWT. For He surely holds the power to make it or make it not happen. Alhamdulillah for granting me such blessed life.

So to wrap it up, 2018 was a year of change as an individual. However, 2019 will be the year of change collectively since I will have to kiss the "Miss" goodbye. With the additional R in the "Mrs" comes the additional Responsibilty in my life. And then the adaptation to the new family, financial and future plannings.

But you know what, bring it on, 2019!

Love,
Mia.

Merisik Kerisik

Dear you,

Today Part 1 of 3 has just passed. 

Alhamdulillah everything went very smoothly as planned. Koobs’ side arrived approximately at 10.50am and tentatively, the ceremony begun at 11.00am. 

Ahamdulillah too for the ever supportive family. My family especially the princesses came to help with the preparation — spree cleaning errrthing, helped Mum in the kitchen and etc. My uncles and aunt came together with their families making everything merrier, as well as being the spokesperson. 

So yes all, Part 1: Merisik. Checked.

Best part of it was I’m donning my Mum’s baju bertandang, back from 40 years ago darling! SO HAPPY THE DAY HAS FINALLY CAMe. Because since I was small I’ve always wanted to wear hera on this kinda days :)

Anyways, twas a brief discussion on the wedding deeds. Followed by the put-a-ring-on-my-finger sess by Koobs’ Mum, Auntie Ina. I was a lil nervous, and shy. Because all eyes were on me. Siap kena berlakon and then paused for the photo. Suddenly I got the gist and glimpse of the solemnisation later. O....M....G! Takutnyaaaaa hahaha. But insyaAllah things will turn out great aamiin.

Ok enough freaking out. But I just want to say, I dont think I can ever forget how Koobs was smiling ear to ear inside his car, peeking at my family and me (duh!) while were ushering his family into our house. Oh sweetheart, that scene was very warm, it touched my heart darling. 

Cant wait for Part 2, which oh Lord, is making me nervous hahaha. Before that, please enjoy our photoshoot at Ayah’s kebun. Fyi, that green thing that seems like a carpet is — moss. And oh the banana tree absolutely makes everything gorgeous (yknow how the mini green concept dais looks like? Well yes that is how it was haha boo).

I am not yet a Bridezilla!

Readers, beware, for this is an absolute rant hahahaha!

Month 3 of preparation.

I must be honest, I am certainly truthfully absolutely tired with all the preparation. Not that no one offered help, and not that I don’t trust anyone. It’s just because I am of my own lady, I have my own taste and par that things must be achieved (lol over ;P). Being detail oriented has not helped me much either. Itu pun I have let loose a bit okay.

Since both Koobs and I are pretty fresh in this employment line, we don’t have as much savings one should have. And the recent change in government has taken its toll to Koobs. We felt the pinch. So we got no choice but to MAKE DO with what's lying in our bank. One best way to do it is for sure by controlling our budget via….. abundance of price quotation enquiry. And when I say a lot, I meant it – A LOT! 

The number of profiles and hashtags I have gone through *smh*. Lucky for us, we are living in an era where the world is borderless. THANK GOD FOR HASHTAGS AND INTERNET! Pretty sick marketing strategy I must say! 

One bride/groom shall make their sacrifices ayy. And for me, my sleep. Yknow I value my sleeping hours kan? Especially my noon naps.  But omg, I cannot remember when I had one anymore T_T I have been doing all the work during the break. Sometimes during the working hours, shhhh :p

Even worse, sometimes I feel like puking from the hours of screen time; scrolling and selecting. Not to mention scrutinising the images to see details of the make up lah, the design baju lah, the pelamin lah. My goodness, help me.

Whatever it is, alhamdulillah, all the big components like catering, dais, wedding garments and rings have been secured/bought. Sucha relief! Alhamdulillah for my Koobs, our supermums and superdad, siblings and bestfriends for their support in any way :) 

Of course I am very much excited to embark into the marriage life & companionship. 

You see that blue pouch? Twas the rings we just bought. And Koobs insisted on holding it (so dearly) while we cross the road because he said, "Uih dah lama tak spend banyak macam ni" lol darling you so funny, so over!

Koobs, mi amor,  no puedo esperar para estar contigo <3

Love,

Mia.

Our First Hick Up

We had our first family to family discussion for our dream last Saturday. But today we experienced a hick up along the way.

I was totally dumbfounded. There are 1001 reasons to have a combined reception, and only 1 reason to do it separately. I could not comprehend this.

However, after a very long thought. I decided that in order to start a new life, accepting a new family, I forgo our initial plan. I would not want to have any beef with anyone. So, I said okay. And my parents, being their flexible selves, they also agreed for a separate reception.

So here we are, instead of having the reception six months after solemnisation, we will be having two receptions - one ala grande hahaha and another one basic bertandang.

Life is lovely innit? 

It sure was, it sure is, it sure will.

Love,

Mia 💕 

Happiest 24th Young Lady

So....

Happy birthday to me I guess?

Planned the perfect scenario in my head since a month before my birthday. Like I dont want any gift in the form of material. Just because I NEED a good company and a day out. But of course, a week before my birthday, work came and there goes my perfect birthday trip.

So, there it was, 2nd August 2018, a Thursday. Spent the whole day in the meeting room; scrutinising assumptions for our business financial modelling. Luckily enough, it was not dreadful. Perhaps because I was in the mood or just birthday magics ha-ha! 

And if you know me, I am by definition, an extremely hyper girl. Especially. When. I. Am. Excited! I was so pumped up I needed to channel the energy out. And there, you could find Fareed & I in the middle of Kuala Lumpur for an adhoc trip. Not that I am not physically tired. But my emotion was so intense, it overpowered my physical/mental fatigue.

5.45pm sharp, clocked out, dozed off to Damansara and to KL. First destination, Petaling Street. Mainly because the theme to the trip was “jalan jalan makan angin”. I wanted to just spend my time with my sweetheart and then I saw Lee Wah Florist, the infamous florist in town. And I thought, you know what, why not buy the flower yourself. So I dragged him into the shop, fascinated by the vast choice of flowers and colours. But I wanted roses. I've always loved roses. Nothing significant, but when I think of flowers, I think of roses. To me it's the classic flower. The uncle said, "dalam ada lagi banyak". And I rushed into the air conditioned room and oh my my.....

MY HEAVEN!

SO MANY ROSES, SO MANY BABY BREATHS, SO MANY HYDRANGEAS!

SO. MANY. FLOWERS!!

As expected, I went cray cray hahaha. I'm already excited. Then Koobs whispered, "You pilihlah mana you suka, I belanja". Oh dear, am I not happy enough? My eyes widen yay. Choose punya choose, I spent almost 40 minutes in there & done-so I ended up with not one but twoooo bouquets. Ahh such love.

Of course after such excitement, it wore me down. So we had to get some food to fill our empty stomach. We made our way to Tapak Urban Street Food near Jalan Ampang to have our dinner overlooking the gracious KLCC Twin Towers. Romantic lan konon konon kan hiks. I had Kuey Teow Goreng and Koobs had some hipster burrito. And the rest is history.

So there goes my birthday. Nothing eventful, no material gifts. Just presence of the things I love.

Simple little things just made me so happy

Love,
Mia

We Said Yes?

What can I say,

                          I am so in love with this guy.

Having said that, a relationship is never always happy. It can be a lil dull at times. But when that moment comes, you try your best to lift it back.

As for us, we are in the midst of planning. Today we have started our initial to do list and budgeting. I am somewhat excited that we are finally strategizing our lives towards what we have longed anticipated. Lama ok bercinta lol!

Despite that, recently, we were always arguing over big stuff. Heck, even over small stuff. It is excruatingly exhausting! Me being a softy, I could not hold back my tears.

I asked my mum, why are we like this? We’re supposed to be more supportive than ever. Happier more than ever. 

She said, it is the norm to be tested. Especially when two parties are deciding to make it halal. The satans will always try their best to ruin the children of Adam.

Alhamdulillah, like really, i thanked Allah - that our test does not involves third party but ourselves. So perhaps, it is a lesson or chance for us to understand better, tolerate better and be better in general. 

Cannot wait to wake up another day and having you as my other half ❤️

Miah - Madly in love.

Highlight of the Week

HALO THERE!

Assalamualaikum!

Seems like this is my first entry ever after bfg haha so proud lol. I just felt the happiest today for this week, for so long. If last week I felt like the whole universe was against me. Today, was completely the opposite of that. Today just made up to whole episode of sorrow, frustrations and rejections I endured last week. Alhamdulillah, praises to Allah #syukur There’s nothing very special about today to be honest, but every simple little things was just in place, perfectly.

Like a usual Sunday, I woke up and went straight to the kitchen to check out on every other human being living under the same roof with me haha and like a baby who needs her mother, I naturally will look for my mummy first. Then came dad and the rest of my siblings. Had those normal morning chit chat at the kitchen, which is not so quite so normal anymore because I felt like I haven’t been experiencing this for quite a while. But of course, being present physically with my family is just so homely. So many years abroad, and especially this year, both quality and quantity times with love ones couldn’t be achieved. It was such a luxury. But being home, I’m so grateful, I can topup those lost moments. Hopefully. I will take what I can get for now hehe.

Then, in the evening I went out for a date with Fareed. Our food date… YAS! He picked me up at home and we went to Jusco. Well initially just to fulfill my crave for a piece of cake. But suddenly when we were there, the crave subsided because I suddenly wanted sushi. But... But... The queue was terribly long, so we went for Ichiban Ramen instead. How quite did my mind changed aye? SUCH FLICKERED MINDED YOU AMIRAH HAHAHA. Guess we need another date for my cake crave fulfillment lol.

The day resumed with the search of cactuses and succulents. Like last two weeks I found this tweet on very bright and beautifully arranged babies of cactuses and succulents. I INSTANTLY FELL IN LOVE. I told myself I needed to get these cuties. And today, I did! YAY!

Tips to take care of it by the seller:

1.   Put them under the sun. Perhaps not directly but enough for them to get the Vitamin Ds haha.
2. Water them once weekly. Best to put them inside a bowl of water, partially submerge the pot into the water so that the water is absorbed from the bottom. Instead of watering them from above.
3. Extra water fertilisers - like the transparent water beads we usually play when we were kids hehe. But this is not necessary tho.

Gosh I just can’t wait to grow the collection. Used to wonder why people would love cactuses and succulents a lot. But I guess, I have found a reason to it :)

What shall I name these babies aye? Hmm.

And the fact that I spontaneously grabbed my polaroid camera before going out was the best spontaneous decision I have made. Perhaps because months ago, I was slightly upset that it couldn’t function properly anymore. I tried everything - I changed the old films, I changed the battery (after 5 years!), I cleaned it up. But to no avail. So I just rested it on my shelf, having a little hope that maybe it will function again later. And last week when I was cleaning my room, I grabbed it. Again, tried to fix the battery. Like oh maybe I put in the battery in a wrong order. And yknow guys, THAT WAS IT. That was THE reason all these while. Oh how foolish you Amirah, wasted the feeling data (which I’ve got plenty. Hahaha I’m such a feeler guys. If that is even a word haha :P). So yes, I totally experimented again with the polaroid, aaaaaaa the feeling guys, the feeling! Somewhat a mixture of relieved, satisfied and filled.

The results are... Him with his "Waja Den" hehehe

With my enemy of all time - FIFA18. MY GOD!

& last but not least, my Fareed sweetheart <3

Best of all, I got the call I’ve been expecting hehe. Last week I went for an interview for a job in MPH. It wasn’t any engineering related job but I just needed to do something instead of sitting at home. I need money to sustain my life, to not feel useless at home, and to not ask money from my parents. Imagine being financially independent for three years and suddenly I had to unwillingly asked them. I just cannot. So this call, just truly a blessing, alhamdulillah. Excited gila I squaled hahaha because prior to the call, when Fareed and I passed by MPH, I said “Haa dah takde notice dah dekat pintu tu, and it has been a week, so I guess I didn’t get the job.”  Obviously kan? But like an hour later I got a call. HAHAHA FREAKING EXCITED I TELL YOU. Cannot imagine in the future when I secure a permanent proper job.

So yknow… Today I realised two things.

First, have some hobby or interest. It will keep you occupied enough to distract yourself from feeling those unnecessary sadness. I have long abandoned my creative side in me. However lately I’ve been getting the sensations back. I felt like writing, like drawing and painting, like taking pictures. So you know, just do it. Just do it! Occupy your time. Help yourself do whatever is going to make you feel better and happy. Life is too short to constantly have those worries and sadness.

& second, I also realised that life is more than just the worrying and failures. It is more to learning from this bittersweet journey. That is if you fail, it is ok as long as you learn to get up. God is not merciless that He would torture you. No! He just wants you to learn, be dependent and ask from Him. Because He never fails to grant our prayers. Only just, in His own way :)

So guys, have you count your blessing and say alhamdulillah today?

Mia xx