Final Home Called Havelock

Assalamualaikum folks,

So i just finished moving my stuffs into my new house. The final house in Sheffield, finally. Feels so fast lah huh. Rasa macam baru semalam datang Sheffield. Aiyaa but whatever it is, we gotta cherish the moments ayte?! :)

Gg do pindah rumah. Dah lah baru balik from Austria travelling. (I'll blog about that later okay?) Luckily i have my dearest boyfriend and classmate to help me out with it. Thanks Fareed and Zahir! 😛👊🏼  Five trips using Yafai's trolley hahaha yknow me ever so many stuff. All important okayyyy 😅 (yeah i know i know, dont give me the face 😛). Cant imagine not having the trolley haha bless you Yafai :)

Alhamdulillah pretty satisfied with everything tho. Cuz i actually gambled saying yes to this house. It was last minute decision. Never even viewed this house haha. Got the front room with an okay view :) Feels more like a neighbourhood. & this house has 2 toilets and showers. Very very plus point okay! Hahahaha & landlord, Mr Asif ( also my previous' house landlord) changed the carpet. Terbenam je kaki dekat carpet tu bila menapak. Lovely jubbly!! Also our curtains are pink and velvet! Gotta love Mr Asif for being understanding man. Love you lots man! God bless you!!

I got good feeling for this house. Keep the positive vibes coming home! Well till then, my stuff cant unpack themselves dont they haha. Bye!

Just a portion of my importante stuffs hehe

 

Hardest Goodbye -Pt 1

Assalamualaikum!

It's in the middle in the morning and i just finished packing. Because the night before Kak Iroh and I spend our time bringing the kids out for some food and then to Kak Ecah's house. Well since maybe Kak Ecah cant send me off. Quite sad lah to be honest cuz well my sister kott! Haha

Fuh the bag is darn heavy i havent actually packed properly cuz some items are still left outside. Contemplating about bringing it with me or not. One side is all baju then another is all food. And my make up/ skin care box, very very heavy! Just realised it now -.-

Oklah i better get some sleep now. Too tired and it's gonna be a long day tomorrow. Definitely want to wake up early to maximise the time left with my old folks. Hmmmm :/

 These three bags yet i need more space! Typical me! Hahaha

Rezeki tertangguh

Aku kembali menulis & will straight forward jump to my rant slash advice slash however you take it but certainly not perlian. 

Dalam hidup ni, bukan semua kita boleh dapat. People always say Allah will either give you now, later or better. And it's always hard to practise the advice we give to others kan. Kata orang sebab bukan kau yang rasa boleh lah cakap. Bukan macam tu?

One thing i can tell & share with you, last year (third year degree) wasnt the best year of my life. I wasnt dealing with life and challenges well. I felt like i had to readapt with my life, studies was pretty hard & i have other responsiblities with work and all the people under me. I failed to balance my life, i failed to manage time, i failed amost every aspect in my life. & being far away from family wasnt any of a help. It took a personal toll on me and i swear i was losing the essence of being the Amirah! At the outside, everyone would see the same me. But in the inside, im slowly changing. I am no longer cheerful, no longer want to socialise. I constantly cry when i am alone (as though crying is my hobby) and at one point i skipped class the whole week & wasnt me anymore. Like a lunatic very depressed person. 

But everything is long gone and ive realised how bad i was when it's too late. Alhamdulillah im ok now. I learnt that kita perlu sentiasa BERSABAR dengan ujian Allah dan BERSYUKUR kerana masih disayangi Allah. I regret not cherishing every moment in last year that when I looked back throughout the year, i can barely remember what i did - cuz i was busy being sad. 

Year 3 - only sad moments. 

Such a waste! 

I want to tell you my friend, you were with me when I was like that, I understand your frustrations (cuz now am feeling so frustrated youre being this.) & let me tell you, how much i appreciate you for being there. Maybe you dont get what you want now. But there is so much blessings in the world that you own and cant count. These times are hard but i promised you to be your side.

Sabar dan beryukur, ok?

Nak masuk final year dah. In two weeks time i'll be heading back to the Uk. Hopefully everything is all rainbow and sunshine haha (or at least most of the time!) 

Otw Home #1

Assalamualaikum!

Kami otw balik! Hehe first time balik berteman. Kalau tak, sendiri lah pack sendiri lah drag bag yang berat tak pernah tak capai 30kg+7kg tu sorang sorang haha. 

Walaupun balik kali ni penuh berita berita yang bukan nak kita nak dengar. Btw sekarang ni otw dalam bus from Cardiff to London. Tibe tibe teringat time travel ke Paris.

We wanted to buy a monopod near Sacre (I forgot the name). A bangladesh guy ni he wanted to sell it for €10 but we said we will only buy if it's €5. Tawar tawar semua. Try cakap English, dia tak paham. Try cakap slow slow pun tak paham. Siap tunjuk sign 5 dengan tangan. Pun tak paham. Then we just went off. 

Pastu kawan dia dekat sebelah (assuming kawan sebab Bangladeshi jugak since in Paris ade 2 orang asing yang abundant - Bangladeshi and Nigerian) macam cakap cakap lah, tegur dia. Kenapa kau tak reti nak cakap Engkish yg basic pun tapi kan kau nak menjual. Cemtu lah. 

So kita pun terpikir lah macam mana lah dia punya gamble datang Paris from Asia just to cari rezeki despite not knowing to speak English and not even French. Kesian. May Allah protect and ease every single soul that has hope and effort to make a better living. Aamiin!

Teringat ayah selalu cakap, "This is the survival of the jungle. Only the strong wins." Oh boy, this concept memang applicable sangat for studies as well 😊 So kena lah usaha keras dalam hidup ni hehe 💕

Mia x

When LIFE kicks you

Assalamualaikum folks,

How are you doing? Cuz if you were to ask me...

Of all the time in my life, honestly this is the most challenging moment. When I am young and naive (not that I am no longer this!), I always thought that the adults and experience people are absolutely poyo for giving this statement - “When you grow up, you’ll be busy chasing everything and yet forgetting everything you own let alone, to be in the moment and lastly regretting it. So, enjoy better your life.”

Aku macam, hmm yeah yeah whatever.

But then, recently life kicks the hell out of me. Well actually, since a few months ago. Till recently, I could not bare the pressure any more. THE MOST MASSIVE ULTIMATE breakdown I have ever experience. Haa gittuw dia punya exaggeration! I really do not have specific reasons to why it happened. I guess I was compressed a little to hard that even small things that don't go my way could tear me down. Another issue apart from the breakdown is, you got to play along and show happy me to the world! Tu yang paling susah kot! At this point, faking isn't going to work. But that's the least you can do to conceal kan sebab outsiders takkan tahu (actually more to you dont want them to know). Not even insiders. Unless if you really barged in, because who would ever show the pain kan? I definitely would not.

Tapi alhamdulillah lah sekarang recovering. The fact that I would want to open up on my problem is a good sign kan. Thank you to the Al Mighty for still blessing me with beautiful souls that care about me so much! Hikmahnya, at my lowest point, I get to know how much people loves me and truthfully, I now value my love ones even more!

Sekadar bercakap melalui pengalaman, andai kata kawan kawan anda tu at the state like me. You hug them! Give cliche quotes or kata kata semangat, because Lillahi "life must go on" and "be strong, as a leader EQ kene tinggi" really comforted me! MashaAllah, especially to those yang hidup jauh dengan family, and friends je yang kita ada. Selalu lah amal amalkan. It might help the well being of others, in a way that it would help yours. Trust me. Sekarang ni, take your phone and call them tanya khabar! Go now! Don't care how awkwardly and how long you guys have not being in touch with them. You might discover something hehe.

Remember this, orang yang selalu ceria tak semestinya tak sedih :)

Another one thing, back to basic, to Allah!

P/S: Ini baru ujian mental hidup sebagai mahasiswi. Not yet to deal about love ones leaving for good. Hopefully when the time comes, I will be ready and prepared :’( 

Yours truly,

Amirah Nasir.

God Bless

Assalamualaikum folks,

So today is the weekend after Sheffield Malaysian Games 2016. What can I say apart from Alhamdulillah? Everything has ended apart from the post mortem meeting. MashaAllah lots of things learnt from managing the event. From people's behaviour, to verbal and written commumication, dealing with meetings and most importantly decision makings especially on the day itself - with the non ideal weather. Feedbacks from the event were brutal mashaAllah. Like bullets passing through the heart and head. But what doesnt kill you make you stronger ayte?! 

Again, alhamdulilah is all i can say.

So you can tell how grateful i am that this weekend arrived! I got the time to myself, tidied(?) up my room, did 2 weeks worth of laundry (opps!), stocked up food and whatever mischivieous stuff that have long gone but who has time to go to tesco and do quick shopping hahaha.

Anyways, because of the previous hectix life, whatever i do now, i choose to do something that makes me feel closer to home. Hence, shopping at a big tesco instead of tesco extra or so. Went with  le housemate, Syira. Took random pictures in there! 

This as you can see is a unique packaging of grapes here. Cuz the usual ones is packaged in a fixed shape plastic. Hard to explain tho. And those watermelons, oh god you dont know how terrible i craved for one! Juicy mouth watering wotahmelon! 😭

Taugeh boleh takkkk hahahaha

And lastly, me and my friends 😈😈😈

Amirah Nasir.

Housemate

Assalamualaikum folks,

So my final exam is in less than a week, thankfully dah buat revision but still not satisfied with my progress. But that is not the bad part. The bad part was, I was down with fever for the past 3 days. It come and go. Hence, lack of focus and yknow it's always bad to be sick before exams.

To make it a story, my housemate did what a housemate should do (i guess, common sense of living together.). She made me porridge and cut some apples. Well to me this is the least you could do kan, but honestly rasa terharu. Being away from home, you just want people to treat you nicely especially when youre sick. Kalau dulu duduk student accommodation, tak dapat lah mcm ni. Kalau sakit, sakit sorg sorg je. 

And for this ya Allah, i thanked you for your mercy and these little angels. May You forgive us all :')

Jazakillah sisters :') besarnya hati ini Allah yang tahu!

Yours truly,

Amirah Nasir.