Hi assalamualaik' yalls,
One week of the Spring term has passed and boy was it hectic. Mondays are the worst. Full class from 10am-5pm with only one hour break in the middle and including the meeting for FYP. And you know as much as I love getting feedbacks from my supervisor albeit his harsh way in conveying the messages, it will always make me think and realise (of course, sometimes in fear). But all is well at the moment, insyaAllah.
So far I managed it will very little tears and disappointment (still learning to be stronger than ever ok, so pardon me huhu and and... it helps me to sleep even faster at night haha). I'm trying to minimise my dependence in sharing my problems with humans but just to my one and only god, Allah! I find sharing worries with people do not do much help. They can only listen (that is, if they are willing) and say "I understand".
But they dont..... so yeah.
Anyways, I am so proud of myself for keeping true to my new year's resolution! I am and will continue being positive, come what may :) Enough of self pity, misery and unnecessary worries last year. It is my time to shine like a jewel under pressure, like my dad always refer me to hehe <3
The rest of the week like Tuesdays are gonna end late because class starts in the afternoon. I'm looking for two hours class every Thursdays and Fridays but since the deadline for FYP report is around the corner, the free times are much filled with labs and analysing and cracking my head to get a better results.
One thing for sure, I learnt that in order to succeed and survive this phase, now, I had to care less of people and it actually numbs me. It's sad because it kinda means my expressiveness is taken away. However, if it makes me more happy and worry less, I will. For example, I usually like to share the small small things but I think some people find it trivial to enjoy with me. Not saying I will not enjoy the little things anymore. But it's just that I will enjoy it alone from now on. Be happy with just me.
To a positive life ahead; I will bloom like the magnolia in Spring, even the slightest wind will not shatter me but instead it serenades the surrounding with its glory.