Sunday, October 15, 2017

Highlight of the Week


Seems like this is my first entry ever after bfg haha so proud lol. I just felt the happiest today for this week, for so long. If last week I felt like the whole universe was against me. Today, was completely the opposite of that. Today just made up to whole episode of sorrow, frustrations and rejections I endured last week. Alhamdulillah, praises to Allah #syukur There’s nothing very special about today to be honest, but every simple little things was just in place, perfectly.

Like a usual Sunday, I woke up and went straight to the kitchen to check out on every other human being living under the same roof with me haha and like a baby who needs her mother, I naturally will look for my mummy first. Then came dad and the rest of my siblings. Had those normal morning chit chat at the kitchen, which is not so quite so normal anymore because I felt like I haven’t been experiencing this for quite a while. But of course, being present physically with my family is just so homely. So many years abroad, and especially this year, both quality and quantity times with love ones couldn’t be achieved. It was such a luxury. But being home, I’m so grateful, I can topup those lost moments. Hopefully. I will take what I can get for now hehe.

Then, in the evening I went out for a date with Fareed. Our food date… YAS! He picked me up at home and we went to Jusco. Well initially just to fulfill my crave for a piece of cake. But suddenly when we were there, the crave subsided because I suddenly wanted sushi. But... But... The queue was terribly long, so we went for Ichiban Ramen instead. How quite did my mind changed aye? SUCH FLICKERED MINDED YOU AMIRAH HAHAHA. Guess we need another date for my cake crave fulfillment lol.

The day resumed with the search of cactuses and succulents. Like last two weeks I found this tweet on very bright and beautifully arranged babies of cactuses and succulents. I INSTANTLY FELL IN LOVE. I told myself I needed to get these cuties. And today, I did! YAY!
Tips to take care of it by the seller:
  1.   Put them under the sun. Perhaps not directly but enough for them to get the Vitamin Ds haha.
  2. Water them once weekly. Best to put them inside a bowl of water, partially submerge the pot into the water so that the water is absorbed from the bottom. Instead of watering them from above.
  3. Extra water fertilisers - like the transparent water beads we usually play when we were kids hehe. But this is not necessary tho.

Gosh I just can’t wait to grow the collection. Used to wonder why people would love cactuses and succulents a lot. But I guess, I have found a reason to it :)

What shall I name these babies aye? Hmm.

And the fact that I spontaneously grabbed my polaroid camera before going out was the best spontaneous decision I have made. Perhaps because months ago, I was slightly upset that it couldn’t function properly anymore. I tried everything - I changed the old films, I changed the battery (after 5 years!), I cleaned it up. But to no avail. So I just rested it on my shelf, having a little hope that maybe it will function again later. And last week when I was cleaning my room, I grabbed it. Again, tried to fix the battery. Like oh maybe I put in the battery in a wrong order. And yknow guys, THAT WAS IT. That was THE reason all these while. Oh how foolish you Amirah, wasted the feeling data (which I’ve got plenty. Hahaha I’m such a feeler guys. If that is even a word haha :P). So yes, I totally experimented again with the polaroid, aaaaaaa the feeling guys, the feeling! Somewhat a mixture of relieved, satisfied and filled.

The results are... Him with his "Waja Den" hehehe

With my enemy of all time - FIFA18. MY GOD!

& last but not least, my Fareed sweetheart <3

Best of all, I got the call I’ve been expecting hehe. Last week I went for an interview for a job in MPH. It wasn’t any engineering related job but I just needed to do something instead of sitting at home. I need money to sustain my life, to not feel useless at home, and to not ask money from my parents. Imagine being financially independent for three years and suddenly I had to unwillingly asked them. I just cannot. So this call, just truly a blessing, alhamdulillah. Excited gila I squaled hahaha because prior to the call, when Fareed and I passed by MPH, I said “Haa dah takde notice dah dekat pintu tu, and it has been a week, so I guess I didn’t get the job.”  Obviously kan? But like an hour later I got a call. HAHAHA FREAKING EXCITED I TELL YOU. Cannot imagine in the future when I secure a permanent proper job.

So yknow… Today I realised two things.

First, have some hobby or interest. It will keep you occupied enough to distract yourself from feeling those unnecessary sadness. I have long abandoned my creative side in me. However lately I’ve been getting the sensations back. I felt like writing, like drawing and painting, like taking pictures. So you know, just do it. Just do it! Occupy your time. Help yourself do whatever is going to make you feel better and happy. Life is too short to constantly have those worries and sadness.

& second, I also realised that life is more than just the worrying and failures. It is more to learning from this bittersweet journey. That is if you fail, it is ok as long as you learn to get up. God is not merciless that He would torture you. No! He just wants you to learn, be dependent and ask from Him. Because He never fails to grant our prayers. Only just, in His own way :)

So guys, have you count your blessing and say alhamdulillah today?

Mia xx

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Our Final, Annual, BBQ.

Assalamualaikum folks,

Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock.

It is the 14th of May. And that means, 9 days to my first paper. The last battle for my degree life. Then, I am done. But till then. ME-RE-PUT. Hahahaha

So since exams are approaching, so does Ramadhan. So like always, we will have the UniKL BBQ session. Usually on Afeeq's birthday but this year we postponed to wait for Afeeq's sister to come. And the day is today.

Come to think of it, alahai... I cant really express my feelings. Not sure too emo or too numb haha. But for sure it's more to sad and sure rindu lah nak tinggal student life hmmph. Today was all sunny and right when we finished everything, renyai and berangin. Cannot stand weh padahal for hours it was sunny haha. We came here in a package of 10 but we go back in 8. But that's alright, God has better plan for all of us.

God what's next?
Pursuing with studies?


Sokayyyy, let's just focus on the 4 papers I will face. Prayers for all of us ya.

And pictures from today ;)

Friday, May 5, 2017



Hahaha this is so random but I was scrolling my social media and saw something. I really want a birthday celebration with pink and black/white balloons. Those hot pink balloons and shiny helium balloons. It's so expensive in Malaysia. One huge balloon cost around RM50. But the balloons in the UK is only £2=RM10. Maybe before I go back for good I will buy some for myself and just go to the party shop in Malaysia to fill the helium gas hehehe



Wednesday, March 8, 2017


Last Summer, I came back to the UK early with Fareed. Then, I moved out from my old house. He helped me with the moving. It was  tiring because I had a lot of stuff, no kidding! & because our travelling and commimuting with the jet lagging, it doubled the tiredness. By 8pm everything is done, so to reward him, I planned to cook. So I cooked. And let me tell you something. It happens every single time I am tired. My cooking will not be a success. It's either the chicken were overcooked, or undercooked or hangus. 

So that particular day, my nasi goreng was something wrong and the omelette hangus teruk that we had to throw it away. I was so stressed and feel like crying because I was tired and embarassed. I have been meaning to impress him. But this guy, Fareed, was smiling all the way. I asked him "Kenapa you senyum senyum ni. Tak sedap sangat sangat ke?". Then he replied, "Hahaha takdelah (menipu je lebih), you're the girl I want to marry." 

I think he was thinking habislah perut aku. Masak tak sedap and all. But it was a good pondering hehe. 

I dont know why I am writing this. Maybe because it's international women's day and I came across, "Women is great. You give them groceries, they make a meal out of it". Hahaha even if it's hangus and tak sedap, still a meal. 

And probably because, Fareed reached Malaysia 12hrs ago and he texted he reached home and visited the grave. And he texted asking for me but I was sleeping soundly for 12hrs and didnt realised his text when I promised him that he can contact me whenever he wants, that I will be there for him. His father passed away two days ago. Al fatihah to Uncle Azmi bin Abdul Samad. May Allah bless his soul and forgive him. And may he be amongst the righteous! Aamiin! 

x Mia.

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Spring with the Flowers, M

Hi assalamualaik' yalls,

One week of the Spring term has passed and boy was it hectic. Mondays are the worst. Full class from 10am-5pm with only one hour break in the middle and including the meeting for FYP. And you know as much as I love getting feedbacks from my supervisor albeit his harsh way in conveying the messages, it will always make me think and realise (of course, sometimes in fear). But all is well at the moment, insyaAllah.

So far I managed it will very little tears and disappointment (still learning to be stronger than ever ok, so pardon me huhu and and... it helps me to sleep even faster at night haha). I'm trying to minimise my dependence in sharing my problems with humans but just to my one and only god, Allah! I find sharing worries with people do not do much help. They can only listen (that is, if they are willing) and say "I understand".

But they dont..... so yeah.

Anyways, I am so proud of myself for keeping true to my new year's resolution! I am and will continue being positive, come what may :) Enough of self pity, misery and unnecessary worries last year. It is my time to shine like a jewel under pressure, like my dad always refer me to hehe <3

The rest of the week like Tuesdays are gonna end late because class starts in the afternoon. I'm looking for two hours class every Thursdays and Fridays but since the deadline for FYP report is around the corner, the free times are much filled with labs and analysing and cracking my head to get a better results.

One thing for sure, I learnt that in order to succeed and survive this phase, now, I had to care less of people and it actually numbs me. It's sad because it kinda means my expressiveness is taken away. However, if it makes me more happy and worry less, I will. For example, I usually like to share the small small things but I think some people find it trivial to enjoy with me. Not saying I will not enjoy the little things anymore. But it's just that I will enjoy it alone from now on. Be happy with just me.

To a positive life ahead; I will bloom like the magnolia in Spring, even the slightest wind will not shatter me but instead it serenades the surrounding with its glory.


Friday, January 6, 2017


Hi yall,

So I just got back from Cardiff and before that I celebrated NYE in London. Wasnt the greatest experience because my goodness - the crowd and big tall people, cant even get through them! Fuh.

I've got quite few to share but pffft, time envies. It's all separated day events. A day we went to Winter Wonderland like finallyyyy in the final year haha and the next day we celebrated the NYE at the Primrose Hill like 15mins walk from Camden Town underground station. But best to say, I think it will be worth the rush and crowd near London Bridge or Tower Bridge or Big Ben because yknow the firework view's good. The cold, it's pretty much the same everywhere. In Primrose... well if you dont mind to see just small fireworks haha go there then!

So let the picture talks :) (and no firework picture cuz hell yeah, it was that small and far to capture even when you zoomed in the camera pfffft!)

Mia x