Seems like this is my first entry ever after bfg haha so proud lol. I just felt the happiest today for this week, for so long. If last week I felt like the whole universe was against me. Today, was completely the opposite of that. Today just made up to whole episode of sorrow, frustrations and rejections I endured last week. Alhamdulillah, praises to Allah #syukur There’s nothing very special about today to be honest, but every simple little things was just in place, perfectly.
Like a usual Sunday, I woke up and went straight to the kitchen to check out on every other human being living under the same roof with me haha and like a baby who needs her mother, I naturally will look for my mummy first. Then came dad and the rest of my siblings. Had those normal morning chit chat at the kitchen, which is not so quite so normal anymore because I felt like I haven’t been experiencing this for quite a while. But of course, being present physically with my family is just so homely. So many years abroad, and especially this year, both quality and quantity times with love ones couldn’t be achieved. It was such a luxury. But being home, I’m so grateful, I can topup those lost moments. Hopefully. I will take what I can get for now hehe.
Then, in the evening I went out for a date with Fareed. Our food date… YAS! He picked me up at home and we went to Jusco. Well initially just to fulfill my crave for a piece of cake. But suddenly when we were there, the crave subsided because I suddenly wanted sushi. But... But... The queue was terribly long, so we went for Ichiban Ramen instead. How quite did my mind changed aye? SUCH FLICKERED MINDED YOU AMIRAH HAHAHA. Guess we need another date for my cake crave fulfillment lol.
The day resumed with the search of cactuses and succulents. Like last two weeks I found this tweet on very bright and beautifully arranged babies of cactuses and succulents. I INSTANTLY FELL IN LOVE. I told myself I needed to get these cuties. And today, I did! YAY!
Tips to take care of it by the seller:
- Put them under the sun. Perhaps not directly but enough for them to get the Vitamin Ds haha.
- Water them once weekly. Best to put them inside a bowl of water, partially submerge the pot into the water so that the water is absorbed from the bottom. Instead of watering them from above.
- Extra water fertilisers - like the transparent water beads we usually play when we were kids hehe. But this is not necessary tho.
Gosh I just can’t wait to grow the collection. Used to wonder why people would love cactuses and succulents a lot. But I guess, I have found a reason to it :)
|What shall I name these babies aye? Hmm.|
And the fact that I spontaneously grabbed my polaroid camera before going out was the best spontaneous decision I have made. Perhaps because months ago, I was slightly upset that it couldn’t function properly anymore. I tried everything - I changed the old films, I changed the battery (after 5 years!), I cleaned it up. But to no avail. So I just rested it on my shelf, having a little hope that maybe it will function again later. And last week when I was cleaning my room, I grabbed it. Again, tried to fix the battery. Like oh maybe I put in the battery in a wrong order. And yknow guys, THAT WAS IT. That was THE reason all these while. Oh how foolish you Amirah, wasted the feeling data (which I’ve got plenty. Hahaha I’m such a feeler guys. If that is even a word haha :P). So yes, I totally experimented again with the polaroid, aaaaaaa the feeling guys, the feeling! Somewhat a mixture of relieved, satisfied and filled.
|The results are... Him with his "Waja Den" hehehe|
|With my enemy of all time - FIFA18. MY GOD!|
|& last but not least, my Fareed sweetheart <3|
Best of all, I got the call I’ve been expecting hehe. Last week I went for an interview for a job in MPH. It wasn’t any engineering related job but I just needed to do something instead of sitting at home. I need money to sustain my life, to not feel useless at home, and to not ask money from my parents. Imagine being financially independent for three years and suddenly I had to unwillingly asked them. I just cannot. So this call, just truly a blessing, alhamdulillah. Excited gila I squaled hahaha because prior to the call, when Fareed and I passed by MPH, I said “Haa dah takde notice dah dekat pintu tu, and it has been a week, so I guess I didn’t get the job.” Obviously kan? But like an hour later I got a call. HAHAHA FREAKING EXCITED I TELL YOU. Cannot imagine in the future when I secure a permanent proper job.
So yknow… Today I realised two things.
First, have some hobby or interest. It will keep you occupied enough to distract yourself from feeling those unnecessary sadness. I have long abandoned my creative side in me. However lately I’ve been getting the sensations back. I felt like writing, like drawing and painting, like taking pictures. So you know, just do it. Just do it! Occupy your time. Help yourself do whatever is going to make you feel better and happy. Life is too short to constantly have those worries and sadness.
& second, I also realised that life is more than just the worrying and failures. It is more to learning from this bittersweet journey. That is if you fail, it is ok as long as you learn to get up. God is not merciless that He would torture you. No! He just wants you to learn, be dependent and ask from Him. Because He never fails to grant our prayers. Only just, in His own way :)
So guys, have you count your blessing and say alhamdulillah today?