I have a dream

to be better than before.

Knowing myself, I love talking. In fact, I talked a lot. Tak perlu untuk seseorang tu kenal diri ni, untuk tahu aku suka bercakap. Talking is my forte lah senang cerita. You can give me the mic, I’m ok with it. The thing is, I cant talk in front, as a leader. Selalu, selalu sangat aku buat kerja yang tak perlu untuk aku bercakap di hadapan. Macam dealing with people, socialise, call here and there. What a membership and networking people does, what a public relation people does - connecting people. That all, is a piece of cake to me. Yeap, tu semua bercakap juga. Yang bezanya kerja belakang tabir.

For the past 21 years I’ve been living, every single time people would ask me why I rejected some post, I had no answer (more to no confident). You see, people believed in me. Parents, family, teachers, friends. Well… I do jugak! But the question is, to what extend? 

Benda ni dah lama dalam pekuk otak ni, cuma tak sampai ke tahap realisation yang mampu nak ketuk kepala ni. Selama ni dia stay unconcious dalam otak. Sampailah duduk dalam komuniti Sheffield ni. I dont know who did, but I was nominated for President and Vice President of SMSA. I thought, “These people are either too crazy to think I can handle this or too jahat to prank me”. Hence, without thinking much, I forfeited. I still went for the AGM tho. Didn’t have anything better to do, so why not. When Fadhlan (our current President for SMSA 15/16 sess) talked about his manifesto, it hit me. In his speech, he said “I like to challenge myself and get out of my comfort zone. I set myself to learn and master a game every two years.” And he did! The best part is, he didnt just stopped playing the game when he starts a new one.

This got me thinking. Like wow! Pasaipa aku tak terpikiaq macam ni? Awat aku bongok sangat dok living in the comfort zone, tak challenge myself, taknak workload banyak, bagi studies as an excuse. So lame! I thought doing kerja belakang tabir is sufficient to boast myself. Enough is enough. I need to do something even better. So aku bangkit, berazam untuk berubah. Tapi takde channel.

Then, 2 weeks ago my name was nominated as the Director of SG. I was like whaaaaat, gilak ni gilak. Went home, think like deep shit and after consulting lots of people, I took it. Went for an interview (two parts - convincing the judges and answering their questions). I competed with my very close buddy here in Sheffield - Ikmal. He as always, came in prepared - physically (sharp looking suit! I wore whatever sweater haha) and mentally (good points to deliver!). But luck was on my side, alhamdulillah. Hence, you’re reading at an entry written by the Cik Director for SMG16. First female SG Director in 24 years. SMG as the second biggest games in the UK and Eire. I am so going to work hard with my team and make this as the best! We will prove that a lady can be a leader too :)

And yesterday, was the first ever SG meeting I chair(wo)maned. If I had the chance, I really want to thank the person who nominated me. Alhamdulillah!

Amirah Nasir.